Sore throat's still there since last week
Oral's on wednesday,crappy!
I don't think I'll survive the test.
Well anyways,start to blog my life.

Last Friday was great.
Went to Holy Spirit for mass, then had crosses exorcised.
Tasty prata dinner at the prata shop nearby,rocks!! =P
Later went to Christ The King for charasmatic. Quite a good day.

Oh yes,
Quote:
"My dear son,You gave me more than a thousand reasons just to say why you deserved to be nicknamed son. You bring the joy in my life ever since I knew you, and you encourage me even when I'm at the verge of giving up. You gave me the best moments in my life and dutifully tag my blog daily. And for all the other many many things you've done, I love you as much. And for the food piling on your plate, you have to eat more to grow up. It's okay, I still love you.This made my Sunday."Unquote

Thank You So Much Mummy!!! It's such a beautiful reply,just love it. =)

We all want to be somebody
Right now, we're just looking for the exit

But time marches on, like a soldier

Somehow,I feel
I feel that we're drawing
Further apart but I don't
Know why. It's has been
A month or more when I
First saw you . I still remeber
Your laughter and your pretty
Face.

You're always happy
But you did said it once,
Although when you answer me
With an wide smile that you're
Happy, but that's not really the case
And sometimes, I don't know
What I can really do to help ease
Your pain except calling you
At night once in a while and joke
Around but looking back,it's was
Kinda lame.

But although you're weak,
You'll never let me down
And I know you're always
There for me like once, when
I was down,you sent me a
Picture of yourself smiling
And that I should smile too and
I wanna say a big
THANK YOU for that.

Lately everyone's caught
Up in their work so there's
lesser time for us to get
Together so we're all
Looking towards the hoildays.
Until I see you again,I'll just
Continute to keep you
And our happy memories
Together In mind always.
I Luv Ya =)

I must have been asleep for days
and moving lips could breathe her name
As I opened my eyes, I found myself alone
In this lonely world

Lame crap i saw over matthew's blog so did it for fun.

Name 11 people you can think of right now in your head.After that tag at least 5 people to do this.

1.Jolene
2.Matthew
3.Nicklaus
4.Wei Ming
5.Brendan
6.Oliver
7.Milissa
8.Anson
9.Gabriel
10.Clovie
11.Marcus

1. How did you meet 10?
-Clovie,Flagday

2.What would you do if u never met 2?
-Matthew,1 good friend less

3.What would you do if 9 and 11 dated?
-Gabriel & Marcus,Gay Couple

4.Do you like 7?
-Milissa,As a friend, of course!! =)

5.Would 5 and 6 make a good couple?
-Brendan&Oliver,If they've gay or if one was a girl,I guess so.

6.Describe 3.
-Nicklaus,No comments

7.Do you think 8 is attractive?
-Anson,Ya

8.Tell me something about 2.
-Matthew,really good friend,aspiring guitarist

9.Do you know any of 4's family?
-Weiming,I met his mum.

10.Whats 5's favourite things?
-Brendan,The Divine Office

11.What would you do if 3 confesses he/she likes you?
-Nicklaus,He'll be gay then.

12.What language does 6 speak?
-Oliver,English;Never heard chinese before

13.Who is 9 going out with?
-Gabriel,hmm...dunno?

14. How old is 8 now?
-Anson,14;15 soon

15.When was the last time you talked to 1?
-Jolene,About 2 days ago/

16.What is 2's favourite band/singer?
-Matthew,hmm...lots

17.Would you ever date 7?
-Milissa,yup should be.

18.Would you ever date 11?
-Marcus,may get into trouble.

19. Have you ever seen 2 naked?
-Matthew,No not really

People whom you want to pass this on: ?

Aching arms,sore throat,blocked nose
What a good way to start the day
I don't feel well the whole day and
The feeling sucks.

Well about the day,
Needed lots of tissue for a leaky nose
And well it's just crappy
the whole day.

Hiaz.....nothing much to write,
I'm no poetic writer like some people
I know.

Without You,My Life Feels Like A Mindless Wreck

Matthew Wong

Well,I first met Matthew In
Sec 1 and he was nicknamed
A freak and all which I don't
Really get cause I don't see
Him as one.

All I can say he's just a good
And nice guy. In sec 2 though
We're in different classes,we
Still had fairly good relations
Because of YCS where we
Grew more bonded. For the next
Year,we were selected as EXCO
Members and so that's where we
Were really close friends and
Could confine in each other
Like the girls we like and other
Crap.

Okay so overall,although he swears
Alot very often without any reason,
He's still a good guy.

This is a person whom
I will devote my life to
Because it's a person
Who's very special
Also one whom I
Am most comfortable
Confining to,and also who's
Always there for me.
This person I'll devote my life to.....my MUM!!
Ok not my real one but my other one.

Ya so she's someone I
Met during Amazing Race
And her 1st Impression of me
Was:Gangster because of my
Specs which sounded lame.
So ya,she's quite cute,
Always smiling when I look
At her and her fits when she
Boards an MRT train.But
She's still a great person to count on
Cause she always cheers me up.

The nickname came about mainly
Because she's caring and because one
Time when had dinner with her,she
Was piling food on my plate,like my
Mum =P ya so that's the first time
I have ever called her that

So next time then!!

Woke to a lazy morning today,
Boring morning but thanks to
XiAo-MeI and Bryan for talking
And slowly it feels better.

It's great to know that there are
Still people in this world that
You can always count on when
You need them the most,whether
It's because you're sad or bored or
Heartbroken.

So,played LAN later near grandmother's
House which is quite a good game cause
I owned more than I usually did.=)
Tomorrow's Monday start of a new week,
D&T so far on a good track.
There's still abit of sadness in me because
Of a test I flunked;but i know there will
always someone there for me.
Motivation to study has been not good
Lately,I guess it's time to start before it's
Too late.Next time then!!


When I lie in my bed,the motions go through my head
You know that I'm thinking?
I'm thinking...
And I have reasons to believe that I'm not the only
One you'll spend this time with, but I just know
That you won't ever let me down.

Engravings On A St Benedict Crucifix

Original:
Crux Sancti Patris Benedicti
Ejus in obitunro praesentia muniamus.Crux Sacra Sit Mihi Lux.Non Draco Sit Mihi Dux.Vade Retro Satana, Nunquam Suade Mihi Vana--Sunt Mala Quae Libas, Ipse Venena Bibas

Translation:
The Cross of St Benedict
May we at our death be fortified by his presence
The Holy Cross be my light
Let not the dragon be my guide
Begone, Satan, do not suggest to me thy vanities--evil are the things thou profferest, drink thou thy own poison

A Pictures Speaks A Thousand Words

You left me, now you come back to me
Saying it's changed and we're not the same people we once were.
And you beg to be back with me, I can't see anything but you.
Every night, I see you there.
Everyday, I hate you and everything we once were.
You keep saying it's changed and we're not the same.
And you beg to be back with me, now I can't see anything.
I won't forget everything that you put us through.
Every night, I see you there. Everyday, I hate you.
Crying can't carry you back to me.

Silverstein-My Consolation

Well I can't really think of how to say this
But anyways,thanks mummy for wishing me
Espically your b-day song =P
I wanna tell you this,

Today was school celebration
For Youth and Racial Harmony Day.
So could wear anything we wanted and
Can dye hair. So had a crappy celebration
In the hall by some opera group by
Making an Indian Story
Like a Chinese Opera,kinda borring at times.

Carnival lasted like 2hrs only. But yea,
Spent most of my time in D&T Classroom
Discussing and planning YCS stuff with
the old chairman and vice chairman and the new
Chairman. Abit of a crappy celebration though =P

Later got Annual General Meeting.
Stepped down but got my old position back.
So had a pretty cool line-up for our new Exco,
Chairman/Spiritual Director: Benjamin S
Vice-Chairman: Samuel Ng
Sectary: Me for the 2nd Term
Logistics/Treasurer: Marcus

But we don't really trust Marus much due to his behaviour.
So till then bye!!

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon I would be
Blinded by tears

So kinda tired now.....after a long school day
But last lesson cancelled. So,after school,
Got birthday bashing =P 15 times only nia....
Same as my age now.

Well,now kinda boring got nothing much
To do so well since nothing much to write now
So bye!!

And on the wings of a dream, so far beyond reality,
All alone in desperation, now the time has gone,
Lost inside you'll never find, lost within my own mind,
Day after day this misery must go on

love is kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful;
Love is not arrogant or rude.
Love does not insist
on its own way;
it is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at wrong,
but rejoices at the right.

Love bears all thing
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.

Well,there's nothing much to write about....
Today just went to play LAN which is damn
Cheap at some shop in Thompson and yea,
Reached home kinda late.

Actually I was given 2 choices,
I could either meet my mum(real 1)
And got me my present but I guess
I choose the LAN instead,
Dunno if i did make the correct choice.

So tomorrow,I'll probably get bashed up
By my friends =P quite a crappy birthday
Though,falling on Thurdays which I end
The latest at3.30pm so can do lesser
things. I just have the feeling that it'll be
Sucky =(.

I feel my soul dropping to the floor,
Like a hole, like an open bleeding sore

Last weekend was spent on YCS Leadership/EXCO 2006
Here's The Experience

Friday Night:
Reach at about 8.30pm but the rest were eating
So met up and walked back to the campsite
which is freaking nice cause it was a private house.
Sessions,Ice Breakers,Spiritual,Praise and Worship.
At night,Montfort people had a small sharing sessions
And as well as talk about experiences.

Activities on Saturday:
Workshops on Leadership-I learnt a lot from it.
Analysing and Planning sessions - Planned Events For School
'Freeze and Melt'- Running and playing was like going back in time when we're small kids
Workshops on Stewardship- Abit Childish but still good!! Thank you, Guang He's Mother. Great clown skits, while the other stuff done were nice.
Workshop on How We See Ourselves VS How God Sees Us + sharing- Powerful spirtual session,oliver cried and I hav absoutely nothing to say,just wonderful.
Night time watched Tokyo Drift and almost fell asleep.

Sunday:
Mass- Confession and normal mass.
Workshop on Presentation skills- I learnt something from it dunno what though....
Resolving Conflicts- Making peace with others,bandaid exchanging,some people looked siao!!

Ending- photos and goodbyes

Reflection:
Fun Camp As Ever,Games could have been longer!!!

Special ThANKS TO:
Daphne- Arranging Sessions and making this camp great!!
Ben,Sam,Matt,Ryan,Oli- Montfortian Gentlemen who were at the camp,thx for the great fellowship and support!!
Mummy- Talkin to ya on the phone during camp made me feel better so much,love you!!
Milissa- Xiao Mei,very talkative,very social great talking to you =P
Wan Jin-
And Many Others!!

Why can't I feel anything from anyone other than you?

I know you well enough to know
You never loved me
But Why can't I feel anything
From anyone other than you?
Hoping for the best
But now just hoping nothing happens
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason
I just need to keep you in mind
As something larger than life

Psalm 42
As a deer longs for a stream of cool water,so I long for you,O God.I thirst for you,the livingGod.
When can I go and worship inyour presence?Day and night I cry,and tears are my only food;all the time my enemies ask me,"Where is your God?"
My heart breaks when I remember the past,when I went with the crowdsto the house of God and led them as they walked along,a happy crowd,singing andshouting praises to God.
Why am I so sad?
Why am I so troubloed?
I will put my hope in God,and once again I will praise him,my savior and my God.
Here in exile my heart is breaking,and so I turn my thoughts to him.
He has sent waves of sorrow overmy soul;chaos roars at me like a flood,like waterfalls thundering down to the Jordanfrom Mount Hermon and Mount Mizar.
May the Lord show his constant love during the day, so that I may have a song atnight,a prayer to the God of my life.
To God,my defender,I say"Why have you forgetten me?Why must I go on suffering from the cruetly of my enemies?"I am crushed by their insults,as they keep asking me,"Where is your God?"
Why am I so sad?Why am I so troubled?I will put my hope in God,and once again I will praise him,my saviour and God.

Montfort YCS has set up our new website.
http://montfortycs.blogspot.com/

I've been slacking alot lately
And can't seem to find the mood
To do it. I guess maybe cause I
Don't see the point in doing it.

Well,there's really no choice
Because you'll only get into
Trouble with teachers if it
Is undone.

Now looking at my timetable,
There are 3 tests on the same
Day.The POA is abit tougher
As need to study.

Bleah,I rather not talk about
School stuff,it only makes my
Mood drop.

Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

I've been trying way to long
Only pushed the way off to fight you
Now I'm sorry,I'm sorry,I'm not sure
That mistake was stupid
I know that without you
Is something that I could never do
Dont treat me I'm to blame
Sorry,I'm sorry,I'm sorry
Dont treat me like I have ever accused you
Don't treat me like that
I'm sorry if I was to be blamed.

Love By Benjamin A. Matchap

Your voice is so beautiful
I can listen to it all day
It just sounds so wonderful
I don't know what to say

I feel calm
I feel warm
I even feel your love
As I hear that voice
I wish I could see you now
And hear that elegant voice

To feel your comfort
To feel your ease
I would marry you so quickly
And sweep you off your feet
You are that girl
That can't be beat

Looking Back At Memories:

L to R:Matthew(the freak),Iggy(the giant)

Well,Matthew's quite a good friend and despite being
called a freak by lots of people,he's still quite a good guy

Iggy's quite big so he's called a giant. At first he's like
a very quiet guy but now he's slowly opening up,so quite
good.


Vikkash(Indian Guru)

Life of Montfort,we love this guy
With his Jokes and antics.


Nicklaus (Ni-Cock-Less)

Name translate means
You no cock,that's why
He's name is so fun to
Play around With.
So this guy's the cock
Who always asking me
To go play LAN
But I always decline -.-"


Ok so here's a picture taken when i was out with
Him.This cafe's name very unique and reminded
Us of 1 classmate as we always call him Ah-Meng.


Mr Chia(Boiling Stools)

The nickname was originated from one Chemistry
Pratical session where he said boiling stools
Instead of boiling stones.Quite a good teacher,
Sometimes may give class free stuff.

There are still 11 more days
To 20th July,almost can count
The days with my hands.

Mummy,hope you're happy
That Germany got 3rd Place
Finish =)

You Poisoned My Life
So I Take This Knife
And I Cut You Out
To Hear You Scream
Get Away From Me

"Then when you call upon me and come
And pray to me,I will hear you.
When you search for me,you will find me;
If you seek me with all your heart."
Jeremiah 29: 12-13

I should have turned and ran like hell
Last time I got the taste of you
I should have turned and ran like hell
And I say we're through

Go, run away in distress
Try to hide from what's
Creeping and crawling and stabbing
Within try to deny the turmoil inside
If you fight yourself hard enough
You'll never win any ounce of serenity
Or a calm hope.

Crap....Nothing better to post
So anyhow just take friendster
Bulletins and post:30 things I would do this for my baby

1-touch their waist
2-talk to them
3-share secrets
4-give her your jacke
t5-kiss them slowly
6-hug them
7-hold her
8-laugh with her
9-invite her somewhere
10-let her be with you when your with your friends
11-smile with her
12-take pics with her
13-pull her onto your lap
14-when she says she loves you more, deny it.fight back
15-when her friends say i love her more than you,deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved
16-always hug her and say i love you when you see her
17-kiss her unexpectedly
18-hug her from behind around the waist
19-tell her she beautiful not sexy!
20-tell her the way you feel about her!
21-kiss her on the lips
22-DON'T ask her to buy you stuff. you buy HER stuff
23-TELL HER WHAT FEELS GOOD
24-make her feel loved
25-buy them stuff. like small things can still help
26-don't lie to her
27-dont cheat on her
28-take her anywhere she wants
29-text messege her in the morning and tell her
have a good day at school, and how much you miss her
30-be there for her when ever she needs you, &even though she doesn't need you just be there so she'll know that she can always count on you.

Nonsense Stuff =P

These empty feelings question me
Of who I think I’ve become
Mind is ticking life away
Asking if you are the one

Today was one of those
Days that amazingly felt
Good despite being the
Longest day.

Morning was quite
Quiet until my phone
Started ringing in class
Which was quite loud but
Teacher didn't hear,lucky =P

History teacher had something
On so had a free peroid and
Spent it on playing soccer.
Suaned the geography people
After that.

So I can start
The countdown,
It's 15 days before
20th July,my birthday.
But I'm sure it'll be
Pretty quiet.

I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
For this simple reason
I just want to keep you in mind
As you're something larger than my life

Something that makes me
Like Wednesdays is that
School ends the earliset today
At 1.30pm .

So the lessons go:PE,Math,
English,Recess,Physics.
PE kinda fun cause play
Soccer without interference.

Maths,
I would not like to say anything
About it,just borringggg.

English,was quite slack for 1st week
Cause Big Momma was away but
She's back now,so no more mucking
About,as she says.

Physics,just listen to wahtever
The teacher has to say,but his
Efforts to try to make the
Lesson are quite well-received.

Argh....Germany lost to Italy,
Such a waste,had lots of confidence
In the Germans...sighs mummy's sad,
So am I grrr......

Last dance, first kiss
Your touch, my bliss
Beauty always comes with dark thoughts

World Cup 2006 Germany vs Argentina Commotion After the Game

Sore losers Argentina apparently were spoiling for a fight between Germany.Poor player discpline!!Lose then lose,still fight,also no use.

Today,during assembly
There were guest speakers
To talk about some form of
Poetry being performed
Interactively.

Apparently very little
People were unintrestered
At first they like "Poetry Rocks"
But Montfort says "Poetry Sucks"

Haha heck, there was a competiton
By our school people.
Some were kinda funny like:
"If you want to squeeze it,
Squeeze it!!" Cause we
Interperet as squeeze our
b4115.

Heh,thought will get
Scolding because of
Our comments but
Suprisingly,no.

Erm,Mummy your
Shirt that time you lend
Me is collecting dust in
My cabinet. Well,your
Exam's coming soon,
Like tomorrow,Wednesday right?

So anyways,Hope you can do
Well for your paper =D
And one more thing,

GERMANY ALL THE WAY!!!
Luv Ya Mummy!!

England lost to Portugal!!??
WTF!!!


Brazil to France!!??
Really A Shocker


For so long I have felt alone
Content to live with unrest
Longing faded into countless nights

Yesterday was Nick's
Birthday and I forgotten
To get anything for him -.-"
So was waiting there then,one
By one,the pepole on the
Guest list pang sei,don't want to come
And one was making excuses. And alot
Don't want to answer their phones.

So was like just sitting around the com
Playing games.Then got out and buy
Snacks and stuff and 3 extra bottles
Of stuff.

Later played with a useless crushed up can
And Nick's sis ball but apparently someone
Kicked it too hard and it flew into a
Industrial complex beside the condo
Complex but no one wanted to take it =P
So later made do with a real soccer ball.

Dinner time was quite nice
But the wind was abit too strong
So empty cups and tissue nearly
Flew into the pool. So after dinner,
Relaxed for quite a while before
Cutting the cake then had to hide
A bottle of the thing somewhere
But drank it quite fast.
Relaxed on the pool sitting area
And Nick got abit mental and
This proves it:

Looks like an idiot isn't it??

Then another guy Louis downed one
Bottle and he acted damn funny
But apparently mine was not
As strong as theirs so I don't
Feel anything.
After that practised soccer skills
For 1hr+ and bothered Louis
Talking to girls on the phone.

Later went for 1hr LAN
Then,reached home quite late,
Near to 12am. Then parents,
Talk,talk,talk,talk so much
Crap what meet gangster,
Bastard shit crap sia......

We seem so far away from,
These things we used to know.
We seem so far away from, everything new.

We seem so far away from,
These things we used to know.
We seem so far away from, everything new.

Well today's the 1st Cathe Class
For this second semester.
I didn't really pay attention to
What is being taught =P

The funny thing
Is that there's a dog which is
Quite fierce sleeping
In the corner peacefully
Despite the noise,I think it was
Because he was
Enjoying the Air-Con.

Later when to Kovan with
My Cuz and we recounted an
Silly incident where my brother
Apparently stood behind a couple
Kissing and blew his nose behind
Them and seemed not to notice
What's going on.There,me and
Him(my cuz) swore,if we go out
With Girlfriend,never,ever,meet
My brother

Well that's all,
I need to rush to Marymount
Tomorrow so until then.

Suck me down
It's time to rock and roll
Let's hit the bar, Let's lose control
One false move, you took me home
One false move, you're all alone

Life's so boring
At least there's Monday to
Look forward to cause it's a hoilday.

Sometimes isn't it kind of
Irraitng that when you're
Chatting with your friends on MSN
That your parents are looking over you
Typing every sentence on the chat box??
Then, the other person swears or talks
About how much you love your crush,
Or like you GirlFriend or BoyFriend professing her/his love for you
And your mum reads it and tells you to get offline
Immeaditely and not to talk to that person ever again
Or she will start questioning who is
Him or Her is.
Why can't they just give us
Privacy and not bother us so much!!

Well here's one of my
Favourite online photo albums:
http://www.flickr.com/groups/signsoflifesingapore/pool/
There are some really intresting pictures of Singpaore there.
Well,some don't really make any sense at all.

You see her, you can't touch her.
You hear her, you can't hold her.
You want her, you can't have her.
You want to, but she won't let you